If Today Was My Last Day

     I'm really hoping today isn't my last day on Earth. I guess realistically, I hope that every day. But it is my hope today especially since tomorrow is supposed to be the end of the world.
     I've always hated being forced to consider what I would do if I knew I only had one day left. It's just depressing, and I'm no good at coming up with awesome ways to spend my final 24 hours. But in light of the possible apocalypse looming on the horizon, I'm going to try to work my way through this.
     If today was my last day, I think I'd be pretty satisfied with how I spent it. Sure, I didn't go out and do all the things I've always wanted to do and maybe I'll have to die without ever getting to sky dive or swim with dolphins. But really, what does that matter? I'm sure that from the unending bliss of Heaven I'm not going to look down and think, "Ya know, this is great, but I really wish I had been in the ocean in December with some squeaky creatures before I got here." It just doesn't seem likely.
     I think I'd look back and see that the way I actually spent my last day (and all the days leading up to it) was a pretty fitting summary of all the things that make me happy.
     I'm glad I graduated high school. I can't say I ever thought it would happen (it always seemed so unrealistically far away) but it did, and I survived it, and I'm proud of that. I'm grateful for all the people from Bellwood who changed me and made me who I am today.
     I'm glad I spent the last 3 months at a school I never would've dreamed of attending, making friendships and memories and good grades to boot. I'm glad I decided to come out of my shell and meet some new people before it was too late. I'm glad I chose to open myself up to more than the 2 people I've always talked to, and I'm really glad I got the chance to share my story with some people who might've needed to hear it.
     I'm glad I finally figured out in some ways who I am and what I want in life. I'm thankful for the people who helped me to do that. I can't say enough how much it means to me that there are people out there who truly care about others and want to make as many people truly happy as they can. I'm glad I got to see that.
     I'm glad I spent the last week in an Advent/Christmas fervor filled with cookie-baking and house-decorating and present-making. I've been more into preparations this year than ever before mostly because of all my time off, and it feels good to be doing work to get ready for Christmas. I feel like I've had more opportunities to make other people happy this Christmas season than in years past, and if that's true then I am glad.
     And finally, I'm pleased with how I spent my last day. A few errands to run, relaxing and crocheting and enjoying just being in my home. Talking to a friend. Learning someone else's story. Just quietly thinking about my own.
     I read something somewhere that said the Mayan calendars are only predicting the end of an era, the end of the world as we know it, but not necessarily the end of the world itself. That feels about right. It's been a heck of a journey over the last year, and even over the last (almost) 19 years, but this is the end of an era for me. If this is the last day of that journey, so be it. I can honestly say I am ready for the next one, whether it's to come in this world or the next.
     God bless<3